Wednesday, May 27, 2009

psalm 46

God is our refuge and strength,
A very present help in trouble.
Therefore we will not fear,
Even though the earth be removed,
And though the mountains be carried into the midst of the sea;
Though its waters roar and be troubled,
Though the mountains shake with its swelling. Selah

There is a river whose streams shall make glad the city of God,
The holy place of the tabernacle of the Most High.
God is in the midst of her, she shall not be moved;
God shall help her, just at the break of dawn.
The nations raged, the kingdoms were moved;
He uttered His voice, the earth melted.

The LORD of hosts is with us;
The God of Jacob is our refuge. Selah

Come, behold the works of the LORD,
Who has made desolations in the earth.
He makes wars cease to the end of the earth;
He breaks the bow and cuts the spear in two;
He burns the chariot in the fire.

Be still, and know that I am God;
I will be exalted among the nations,
I will be exalted in the earth!

The LORD of hosts is with us;
The God of Jacob is our refuge. Selah

Thursday, May 21, 2009

nappa valley.

Okay so this is the finished product of my 1st commissioned painting.. i usually don't paint for people but Liz's sister asked me if i would paint this picture to give her husband for their anniversary and i thought i could use the experience so i agreed..

Wednesday, May 20, 2009


ok here is a small update.

Matt and I went on our road trip and hit 12 states in 4 days :)
It was perfect. We had such an amazing time.
We got to see so many parts of the US that we've never seen before and listen to tons of NPR/This American Life while doing so.
I adore him.

California has been great too.
The night i arrived i honestly was like what the crap am i doing here and kinda wanted to cry.
Since Ive been around the rest of the staff Ive felt sooo much better and really excited to be here being apart of what the Lord is doing and along side with some of the most amazing people.
I love our staff team. And its been sooo good to know im gonna see Matt ever day and not have to say a million hour goodbye every night..

We had an earthquake the 2nd night i was here.
I was in the middle of telling my testimony/ the power of the holy spirit part in my life and all of a sudden our building starts shaking.
haha. its kinda funny the timing... but def. scared me. It was scary I've been paranoid ever since because there are always after shocks that come and sometimes ones that are stronger.
I know its in the Lords hands though. Im doing my best to trust in Him and his sovereign plan.
He is good and i know my life is his.

I saw today that Iron and Wine one of my most favorite bands played an in house all request free show down the road at a local music store on Sunday and i missed it! ah. oh well. haha I'm kinda sad i did. I mean the place is literally not even 5 min away.
oh man.

I'm missing mt sisters dance recital this weekend. and i knew it would bother me but it brings me to teams when i think of not getting to be there.. i dunno why.. i guess we've both dance at River City since we were 4 and this is her last year and I'm missing it.. I'm missing her graduation too.. i feel like I'm missing out on her life.. that upsets me.. i miss my family already and Ive been gone a week

Jess id going to Italy today and im really excited/ jelous shes going. I love her, She always sends me random emails about the most random but informative things and i love it. Shes pretty great.

O LORD, You are the portion of my inheritance and my cup;
You maintain my lot.
The lines have fallen to me in pleasant places;
Yes, I have a good inheritance.
I will bless the LORD who has given me counsel;
My heart also instructs me in the night seasons.
I have set the LORD always before me;
Because He is at my right hand I shall not be moved.
Therefore my heart is glad, and my glory rejoices;
My flesh also will rest in hope.
For You will not leave my soul in Sheol,
Nor will You allow Your Holy One to see corruption.
You will show me the path of life;
In Your presence is fullness of joy;
At Your right hand are pleasures forevermore.
psalm 16:5-11

Saturday, May 9, 2009

and He said to me.

..."Just wait.. hold on a little bit longer"...

Friday, May 8, 2009


You give me miles and miles of mountains and I ask for the sea.
[damien rice]

48 hours.

Last night the ceiling caught me starring for a few hours again.

This morning i walked off campus finishing one more year of college.

Today my sister turns 18 and i say goodbye to one of my best friends for little while.

Tonight my hands will hopefully have completed my first commissioned piece of art work.

Tomorrow morning my brother graduates from college.

Tomorrow I'm taking my time driving to my home town. I look forward to the 2 hours alone in my car driving though Alabama.

Tomorrow night ill be back home and get to spend much needed time with my best friend in the entire world.

Thursday, May 7, 2009

to You.

From the end of the earth I will cry to You,
When my heart is overwhelmed;
Lead me to the rock that is higher than I.
psalm 61:2


there's only four seasons
and this ones almost gone
[joe purdy]


Its storming. 3 am. I'm sweating. I can't sleep.
The thing I cant stop thinking..
I wish I were the one you shared your words with.


She lifts her skirt up to her knees
Walks through the garden rows
With her bare feet laughing.
[ray lamontagne]

Ive always liked to pretend that I'm the girl in that line.

Wednesday, May 6, 2009


I'm in kind of a cheesy mood.. so here it goes...

I just want to reiterate the fact that i will be in the car with Matt on the way to Colorado a week from today.. haha. Seriously.. I'm so excited.. For those of you who don't know.. Matt does live 9 hours away... and we see each other maybe every 4-6 weeks (except as of late, due to surprise visits) but we get to spend 5 days in the car together on our way out to California just the two of us.. we are stopping a few places on the way to stay with people.. but yeah. Everyone should be excited because i really am!!!!! hehe.

The duggers.

I'm not gonna lie I love watching 17 kids and counting.
Most college girls get together to watch shows like Gossip Girl, Grey's, Laguna Beach.. and other shows of the such but my friends.. we get together to watch the Duggers. haha.
Last night we watched an episode on Anna and Josh, the newly wed couple. It was entertaining.
The Dugger's are some of the most loving steadfast people Ive ever seen in my life.. of course they have their extreme conservativeness in everything they do that i don't necessarily aspire to be like but i truly admire them. I admire them for their trust in the Lord with their lives, how patient and peaceful they are constantly.. and still manage to have fun and be passionate about life with out legalism. I want to be like Mrs Dugger.. I don't want to have 18 kids but i want to have her kind gentle heart that's calm even with 18 kids running around... She and her husband are so respectful to each other.. and honor each other with their words.. i want to be like that when I'm married. All of their characteristics come out of a heart that is in love with God and that honors God. A lot of people think they are weird and crazy but they challenge me like no other family has.
Yeah this is funny. But really.. i love them. haha.

I want to meet them someday.

Today Im half way done with my exams.
Today its raining and im in love.
Today i decided this is my favorite song of the week...
A week from today ill be on my way to Colorado with Matthew.
Tonight im going to get half price wine and pizza at Cafe Venice with Davis Ann as our end of the semester date that we have had since freshman year. Its always one of my favorite things of the whole semester.

Tuesday, May 5, 2009

panera break

Random thoughts.

I want to be faithful.
like really faithful.

I love pulling the lent out for the dryer, like i look forward to it (is that weird?)

I'm sad Erica is leaving Tuscaloosa. Ive learned so much from her.

Its Cinco de Mayo and da, sara, stevie, erica, and i are going to get margaritas.

I haven't studied very much since Ive been here at panera and Ive been here for 3 hours.

Im about to go buy a journal for the summer.. its kinda a big deal to me... a lot goes into picking one out for me.. im kinda picky.

I wish i was napping in my bed.

I should be getting my white pants i ordered from urban today of tomorrow :)

I feel like something new is about to happen. obviously school will be over.. but i feel a transition taking place slowly before me.

I love southern summer rain storms and how they just rolls in and leave.. it really does that like in the movies...

I want to lose my life.

I love Alabama bc of the wild flowers.

I dl new awesome music yesterday and today. mmm.

I want a massage.

I want to be like the widow in Luke 18.

I want to use less words but for my mind to be in such an order that i can do that..

I still want to speak french.

I miss jessica.

I see my family this weekend :)

I am almost half way done with my exams!

Sunday, May 3, 2009

poor and needy

Ive felt really needy and annoying lately. I tend to pull away from people when i feel this way and when i sorta feel rejected but the Lord keeps reminding me about the truth behind it and that He thinks upon me still.. over and over i keep singing the Misty Edwards song i sung constantly in my head freshman year.. "though I'm poor and needy the Lord dreams about me, though He's high and lofty I'm always on His mind.. I'm always on his mind"... to the one who i should annoy the most with my prayers and my unfaithfulness.. to the one who is Holy and blameless.. I am worth bearing with.. He is the one who thinks and longs for me... this i don't understand.. His love is so great..

I really really love Him.
and i really want to love well.

I am poor and needy Yet the LORD thinks upon me. psalm 40:17

Things I'm looking forward to:
Finals being over
My date with Davis Ann Wednesday night
Erica's party ( not her going away but the social part of it)
Seeing Matthew a week from tomorrow
Getting to clean my room for real on Friday when ill be done with life here for a while.