Wednesday, March 31, 2010

you.

The phone line outside my house,
Wonder what words it has seen?
What would happen if they all spilled out
And, I got the lovley ones for free?

Id tie them in a bow and send them your way
On the fastest train I know, to get to you.
-jillian edwards

Tuesday, March 30, 2010

inspired.

Today I'm very inspired.
I finished sewing my computer case and it fits like a glove. I ordered it a while back only to realize i cant read measurements. So, i took it apart and resized it. Even changed the design a bit. Its going on my "new crafts to make and sell list". Love that title? I have lots of new ideas for art/painting, sewing, and crafting.. (i.e. thrift-store shopping to create cool things.. i don't want to reveal my plans. hopefully you will see soon!) ah. Im so excited. Being inspired is the best. Davis Ann and i went on an hour walk today, its so beautiful and warm here. A little sunshine is always good for the soul. Now. Im looking for a new book to read. I have a few on my shelf that are unread but don't seem to fit at this point in my life. If anyone has any good ones let me know!
I have an inspiration folder of photos i like on my computer. Here is one!

all things green.

I may or may not be getting on a green kick again. I think about it a lot. Im pretty sure it has something to do with the thoughts of summer. Summer not only makes me think of the countryside but makes me think of farmers markets. In Long Beach, Ca every thursday there was a farmers market downtown in the arts district. It was so fun to ride my bike downtown and just look at the art, try the food, and buy flowers. Matthew and i went to the Santa Barbara farmers market last summer and it was huge! Made me wonder why its not a big deal here.. here where we supposedly have a lot of farmers?.. Yes maybe it is the fact that California is indeed a hippie "more liberal" state than Alabama? (whatever that means) but i think that shouldn't matter. Hopefully when i have my own job, home, etc. I will remember to and choose to support local farmers and shop at the farmers market. Plus its a cooler way to shop and there are always tons of wildflowers! (my favorite)
Here's to beautiful colors, wildflowers, freshness, and summer!

Sunday, March 28, 2010

love.

Balmorhea "Untitled 1" from Retread Sessions on Vimeo.

These guys (and girls) are amazing. I got there cd a week or two ago and fell in love. They play such beautiful, elegant, and kinda enchanting music. Its instrumental and just perfect! Hope you like it as much as i do!

Saturday, March 27, 2010

happy saturday.

Today im going to an arts festival.
It will be about 74 degrees and sunny.
Im having pancakes with two of my best friends Gabrielle and Davis Ann.
(a saturday tradition around here) Ive learned the perfection of making a pancake. Ive made them almost every saturday for over a year (well during the school year) and i quite enjoy it.
Also, today im hanging out with Christie. Another one of my favorite people these days. Its going to be a good day.
Ive been thinking about summer non stop. Im sure along with everyone else im ready for the warm sun and green grass. Im not sure what it is but ive also been craving the country side. It makes me feel kinda like a little girl.
This summer im spending it with Jessica in Tennessee. The thought of having my first summer in the south and not in California (for the first time in 3 years) is a little strange but im excited about the hot humid air in the south. It may sound crazy but its comforting to me. Reminds me of so many good times.

Thursday, March 25, 2010

selfPortrait.

video

My life the past 2 years.
This is my self portrait for a digital media seminar class.
[ps. its a stop motion]

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

peace.

Spring Break was great. I spent the first weekend celebrating the engagement of my brother and his now fiance Emma. I am so excited for them and to soon have a new member to our family. The entire week was spent in Fayetteville with Matthew. We simply hung out for most of the time but did go on a hiking adventure one day. I will post photos soon. I was great to road trip to Alabama with Matt and just do life with him here and there. After dating almost 2 years long distance we have finally become more than ok with not doing anything when the other comes to visit. Im really blessed. I knew this before but im seriously realizing more and more how lucky i am. Well i guess i don't believe in luck so i guess i should say im realizing more and more how good the Lord is to me through Matthew. Matthew is the sweetest and thats all i will say about that :o)

I got to eat with Sandra tonight after i took Matthew to the airport. We had so much fun. I forget how much i love birmingham. We ate cupcakes from a cupcakery and just picked back up where we left off. I love friendships like that. I love that i can call her my friend.

In other news. I had a crazy dream last night. I had a dream i was on the beach standing behind a beach house and saw this huge tsunami coming towards me from down the beach.
Weird it was coming from down the beach and not from out in the ocean but i guess that doesn't matter much. I was startled to see it coming but decided to sit still and hide in a hole in the wall instead of running from it. Kinda crazy but i woke up with so much peace. I have shared before that i have pretty crazy dreams. I am usually strongly effected emotionally by them too. This dream made me feel so protected. Like the Lord was showing me that he will be my refuge when things come my way. I have to be still and know He is God. Sandra and I talked abut how this totally describes psalm 46.

God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble. Therefore we will not fear though the earth gives way,though the mountains be moved into the heart of the sea,though its waters roar and foam, though the mountains tremble at its swelling. There is a river whose streams make glad the city of God, the holy habitation of the Most High. God is in the midst of her; she shall not be moved; God will help her when morning dawns. The nations rage, the kingdoms totter; he utters his voice, the earth melts. The LORD of hosts is with us; the God of Jacob is our fortress. Come, behold the works of the LORD, how he has brought desolations on the earth.He makes wars cease to the end of the earth; he breaks the bow and shatters the spear;he burns the chariots with fire."Be still, and know that I am God. I will be exalted among the nations,I will be exalted in the earth!" The LORD of hosts is with us;the God of Jacob is our fortress.

So reminder. He is there. He is God. He is love. And He never lets go.

as a side note, i took photos of my road trip home to Alabama for my self portrait stop motion video. I figured nothing tells more about me and my life the past 2 years than traveling. Hopefully when it is finished it will be worthy of sharing on here.

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

hair cuts.

so um i got a haircut! :)

Saturday, March 13, 2010

lisztomania.

i absolutely love watching these kids sing. They do covers of very talented artists and put a twist on the actual song. Lisztomania is one of my favorite songs by Phoenix and i LOVE That they did it with only the piano. It makes me smile to see kinds seriously being passionate about awesome music. You may can tell that i am a feeler by that last statement.
Also.
Here is the real music video if anyone has not heard the real song. I couldn't get the video code for it so here is the LINK.
Hope you enjoi!

Monday, March 8, 2010

check it.


He loves me! ;)

Also as a side note /update: we have bats in our house.. well in our attic.. abut 40 of them.. we got to have a wildlife guy who fights off snakes (like steve corwin used to) come over and scare us about how bats can fit in holes the size of your pinky.. hinting there is a possibility they can come in our house. Fun times. And funny times.

sb.

The anticipation is killing me.
I have had amazing Spring Breaks the past 3 years.
1st year Gabrielle and I went to Spain.
The next year i went to the beach with 30 of my friends.
Last year I spend ten days in Dallas with Matthew's family.
This year Im going home for a few days then heading to Fayetteville.
Im so very excited. I love the drive up there & I love the city.

I might start packing. No joke.

year1
year2
year3

Sunday, March 7, 2010

i know.

I don't proof read.
Its a bad habit i know..
Goes on the list with counting my steps as i walk..
always using 5 or 7 ice cubes..
and thinking out loud when i am alone..

Look what college has done to me.
Didn't do these things before.

sweet Jesus.

I had one of the best weekends i have in a very long time.
I have thought a lot about how i would explain the weekend but might have some difficulty doing it, so bear with me.
The weekend started off with a good Friday morning in Staff Meeting for Cru. It was a very unproductive meeting but i laughed a lot so that made up for the frustration of the unproductively.
It was a beautiful day and all i wanted to do was spend time with Matthew. I feel as if im pretty good about being long distance. I try not to think about other couples and compare my life to theirs because no one is the same. But sometimes the inability to be together gets to me. I just wanted to spend the beautiful afternoon with the one that i love. Matthew went camping and called me on his hour drive to the river where they would be. I ended up in tears on the phone after talking about how great the days was for both of us. These tears even caught me off guard. After learning multipke times that crying over things like this doesnt change anything the night went on like it always does, me wishing i was with him and him wishing the same thing. The ended with me going to Christie's house for a mini girls retreat with Cru.
Saturday i woke up and went over to Christie's agin for 2 sessions led by a girl named Joy Davis from Mississippi who used to be on staff with Crusade.
Lately everything i'm learning has been coming from the Old Testament. It seems like everyone is preaching and teaching out of either Genesis or Exodus. She taught from Exodus and Numbers this weekend. She focused on the passage in Numbers 11 and Exodus 8. The sum of her message focused on how God provides Manna in the wilderness like he did the children of Isreal. God gave them Manna when they needed it but they still told him that the were not satisfied and wanted meat instead. They gave in to other cravings. He gave them what the wanted but it was bad for them in the end. God provided each of them different portions of Manna everyday according to each of their needs. Some days he gave more some days he gave less, but he gave enough. In the same was he provides enough for me according to my need. In every way. Emotionally, spiritually, physically, and mentally. I don't see it all the time but right now he has provided for me everything to live a godly life. He has given me enough. Really more than enough. I get so unsatisfied with what i have in front of me and decide to give in to other cravings. I wonder why Matthew and I are together yet 9 hours away but have to realize that God has given that to us as a provision. The distance is part of his provision in some way that i may never know. He knows that i feel unsatisfied sometimes being away from Matt. I know though that the Lord knows i need intimacy and He has already given enough to me to be emotionally satisfied. I have to be satisfied in the times i am apart from him and when i am with him. He has taught me that no matter what happens in the end that i can only be dependent on the Lords satisfaction and that no person can provide that for me like He can.
Anyways in saying all of this, Saturday i had a contentment inside that i had not felt t a very long time. I spend my afternoon going on a walk with Gabrielle and I was okay with the fact that i would not talk to Matthew all weekend due to camping. I was not anxious about getting to communicate to keep our relationship connected.
That night i ate dinner and watched a movie with Sara and Gabrielle. At about 10:30 we had a knock on the door... i went and looked out the window and Matthew was standing there. Im still smiling from the feeling. I had NO idea. I had not talked to him for almost 2 days and figured He was still with no service. The Lord blessed me by helping me understand contentment. Once i was He blessed me with even more than i could have imagined. Not saying that every-time i am content a surprise will show up at my door but when i let the Lord be my satisfaction i have a inner peace i cant feel from anything else.
Matthew has already left but It was a great 5 hours that we got to spend together. I will see him a week from tomorrow.
I know i have a pretty sweet boyfriend. And an amazing Lord.
This will always be a struggle in life for all of us. Its always easier said than done and contentment is a hard thing. Even still i have to trust in His promises for my life, that He will be who He says He is in time of need and that He already is who he says he is even when i don't feel it or believe it.

oh also. Matthew brought me tulips! He forgot in the car because he was so excited to see me but nothing happened to them :)
Oh man.

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

stop.


EVERYONE is doing stop motion videos these days.
Something in me wants to be annoyed that is has become such a trend but im getting over it. Its a cool video and something to be admired.

obsessed.

Im obsessed with the first picture!!!
Gah tress make everything better...
both artists are amazing.
You should totally check out their stuff.
love beautiful inspiration blogs.